Having recently spent lots of time in Ezra and Nehemiah, God’s grace and faithfulness to His own Word are mind-blowing. As a concept, knowing that God is full of grace and faithful isn’t difficult. Understanding this in a real moment by moment, day by day, year by year, decade after decade sense is what’s difficult. Its difficult because the most faithful of God’s people are not that kind of faithful. We all blow it. Its difficult because the most gracious of God’s people are not that gracious. We all have times, if not just moments, when we do not extend grace. Usually in those circumstances we rationalize it, sweeping it under the rug of our memories, convincing ourselves we are justified.
God’s grace and faithfulness are all the more mind-blowing in light of our lack of grace and unfaithfulness. Even though we are not faithful to Him He is faithful to us. Even as I type those words it doesn’t seem to carry the weight it should. Let me say it a different way. Even though we routinely commit spiritual adultery, casual infidelity, against the One who gave everything to purchase us out of sin’s clasp and eternal punitive justice, He loves us as if we haven’t betrayed Him.
Oh yeah, its that bad and ugly. We readily point to someone else’s unfaithfulness, but its usually just a self-righteous high-wall erected tall enough for gaze to be hidden from the immediate sight of our own unfaithfulness.
We need to return to an understanding of our need for faithful God’s grace and mercy. We need a fresh start and recognizing our own sin’s grievousness in light of Christ’s holiness is the place to start.
Back to Ezra and Nehemiah… The restored the temple before rebuilding the wall. They placed intimacy with God before protection from their enemies. That’s exactly what we need to do. Don’t wait for something in your life to be straightened out before returning to Christ (or turning to Him for the very first time). Enter His presence, more concerned for your relationship with Holy God first. “Seek you first the Kingdom and God and His righteousness, and all these other things will be added unto you.”